I am participating in the word of the year challenge hosted by Corinne of Everyday Gyaan. I am supposed to pick up one word that I aspire to be or follow and that will propel me forward in the new year. I choose – ME. Don’t be surprised. I know it’s a pronoun. But it’s still a word, the last time I checked in my Oxford Dictionary. So why did I choose ME as my word of the year (WOTY) when there are a million beautiful words (which are not pronouns) out there? Let me tell you.
As a small child, my whole life and my parents’ revolved around ‘I’. As I grew up, I changed into WE, because you know how important it is to be a part of a team and work as one. Marriage and motherhood changed the We into YOU.
What will you eat for dinner today?
Aren’t you feeling well today?
Don’t you worry, I will take care of the chore!
I am someone’s wife, mother, daughter and sister, but what happened to the woman – ME? Where is she? So, you see I got lost in the labyrinths of domesticity and all that remained was YOU. I realise I am not ‘me’, but the sum total of people’s expectations.
In 2019, I will be turning 40, and I think it’s a good enough time to rediscover myself. If I don’t act now, I will become one more Sisyphus who will be living the life of absurd.
And that’s why I have thought of working on this little project which I am calling the Project Me. And these are the 5 Rules of Project Me.
I will love myself. As I am. The whole life I have been taught to think about others first, to selflessly love others first. How will I love someone if I don’t love myself first?
I will not neglect myself whatever might be the circumstance.
I will respect myself, accept myself and forgive myself.
I will not be a pushover.
I will be my favourite person. The first time I had heard someone saying ‘I am my favourite person’, I had thought what an arrogant person! But on hindsight, he was not wrong.
Do you think I am being selfish? Do you it’s too ambitious a project? Well, could be. But after working on various projects over the years, Project Me makes perfect sense. Also, after four decades on this planet, I at least deserve to be ME.